Sunday, February 9, 2014

Self-experimentation: Decaf

Sometimes Mother Nature has other plans in store for us all. 

Today is shaping up to be a wonderful day so far - it's the first of the week, and while Sundays (Mondays) can have us feeling a bit disoriented, dazed or fatigued, I've been noticing the recently I am really well prepped for the beginning of the new work week. It feels great.
I think it's because I have good weekends, really enjoyable weekends, and thus I feel refreshed and eager to resume a new work week. Sometimes I feel like the weekly cycles are just that - cycles. A cycle is inherently repetitive...so in order to redirect sensations of ennui, I've been listening to motivational podcasts, uplifting information and thus helping myself to view each day in a positive light. Specifically, that each day is full of new potential, surprises, unexplored possibilities and brimming with my creative capacity. I think that each day can be made even more significant and unique by creating something new. Perhaps writing a new poem, a new blog entry, a new article, or for those who are more artistic - creating a piece of art or taking some pictures that represent an artistic view on things that others may not capture at first glance.

I was hoping to go rollerblading this morning for a change however it was raining quite heavily and thus plans changed. I still had a window of opportunity to get a workout in, if only I scooted to the gym. I had an awesome HIIT cardio session on the treadmill, 45mins and I felt really uplifted. I normally prefer to workout for 1.5 hours to feel like I'm doing something, however, the experts all agree - you should workout even when you're strapped for time: 15min, 20 mins, 30mins... So considering I had 1 hour, it was an opportunity goldmine. 

You just have to identify, decide and go for it.


DECAF COFFEE EXPERIMENT
Since last week I am trying to stay on decaf coffee in the morning pre-workout to see what changes I experience in my body and mood. Caffeine causes our adrenal system to get into high-gear in order to clean it out of system. Add to that the stress and cortisol induced by exercise, work stress, relationship and life/road stress, and you can see how adrenal fatigue easily manifests and can take a toll unless you actively apply relaxation techniques (yoga, meditation, deep breathing, massage, and such). 
Adrenal fatigue impacts energy levels and also sleep. And so, last week I had decaf coffee Friday-Wednesday. Everyone says that missing your regular cup o'Joe will make you feel cranky, moody or else "not yourself". I admit, the first 2-3 days that I was going sans-caffeine I did feel slightly moodier, 'off' and like I was missing that extra zest or fire. In fact, one of my friends noticed during our lunch together that my eyes were a bit tired, as if I had not slept well. I had slept just fine, however it was my first workday without the caffeine. Anyhow, I just got on with it. The more we live, the more I realize that you just have to crack on and not get too attached to a minor physical temporary discomfort since it's ephemeral, and there will be discomforts anyways so it's more about the mental strength of facing that unease, accepting it and overcoming it/moving past it.

In terms of exercise:  At first, in the beginning of my workout I was a bit calmer than usual however by the time I was 30mins in, I was energized as I normally am and pushed on. In any case, I rationalized that in reality the energy for the weight I'm moving comes from muscle glycogen stores, and these were replenished since I have my oats pre-workout. So basically, I can manage well w/Decaf coffee before a workout. Yes, Caffeine has that desirable fat-burning mechanism...well, I just have to trust that I am working out and giving it my best shot to build muscle which will in turn increase my metabolically active lean body mass and thus burn more calories and fat overall throughout the day.

It's recommended to avoid caffeine after your workout because your body's cortisol levels have been elevated by the exercise and thus you want to avoid further increasing cortisol production since it wouldn't be beneficial in the post-workout window.

Excessively elevated Cortisol --> Belly fat!

How I felt after 6 days caffeine-free:

Wednesday night, Feb 5, completing the 6th day caf-free, I slept amazingly well. So deep, full and wonderfully. I awakened on Thursday eager and joyous to seize the day and attack my full-body circuit workout. It was awesome.

These days, I am really well-energized for my workouts and sleeping well. Overall, I think comes down to prioritizing sleep 7-8 hours per night, cutting the caffeine, and I also take Valerian Root, 5-HTP, and Magnesium at night pre-bedtime. Keeping a regular, consistent sleep/wake schedule might also be beneficial since the body is allowed to maintain a healthy, stable rhythm of bodily processes. I also don't smoke or drink alcohol...

The oats+protein powder pre-workout are my staple now in the morning, and it's been really pleasant to have this meal in my nutrition. I added the oats (30g carbs) on December 17, 2013 (almost 2 full months ago) after reading Layne Norton's article "The Ultimate Cutting Guide". So let's see. Since then, I've also incorporated 1 TB milled flaxseed and 3g Black Chia Seeds into the Oats to deepen the nutrition and make the plain oats more exciting. I add 1/4 Tsp Sea Salt and mix different spices such as nutmeg, all-spice, cloves, cardamom, coriander, and cinnamon of course!

Oats are yummy and good all around. Simple, quick and nutritious - a real power-food in my kitchen.

Other power-foods in my kitchen aka favorites:
- Chia seeds, flaxseed, coconut oil, coconut butter (manna), cinnamon, dark unsweetened cocoa, celery, spinach, ginger, nuts, and Raw Protein powder (although I love the other commercial protein powders that are not so chemical-free). These are the ones that first come to mind.

Eating well and nutritiously is satisfying, fulfilling and medicinal - I love it! 

Hippocrates: “Let food be thy medicine and medicine be thy food”

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Living on Repeat? Repetition, Passion, Creativity


Each day feels like a new beginning and a new blessing. However, there are some days when I wake up and it also feels like I'm on 'repeat'. I asked my friends if they feel the same way sometimes, and it turns out I'm not the only one with the "Groundhog Day" syndrome (reference to Bill Murray's 1993 Classic "Groundhog Day" movie, http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0107048/"

I remember watching that movie as a little girl, I was 7, and it was entertaining then, although I wasn't old enough to appreciate that the movie was artfully and comically illustrating the sensation of living life on repeat.It seems that routine is inevitable once you get settled into life, and even when you add variety to the mix, even then there is routine and a cyclical nature to the routine. 

Even variety has a routine, and that's part of life.

Most days I don't wake up feeling like it's the same day; actually 95% of the time I awaken with eagerness, gratitude and appreciation that it's a new day, a new beginning, a fresh start. I am always enthused to prepare my coffee, take my supplements/vitamins, and have my pre-workout outs while listening to an interesting podcast, Ted Talk or other enlightening/entertaining YouTube video. Mornings are awesome. You are fresh, and anything is possible. Indeed, the world in this one day is brimming with potential and surprises.

The moments when I feel like I'm repeating life is when I experience lesser passion or excitement for some reason; perhaps lacking the excitement of romance  :-) Romance is definitely exciting. I love me some good, yummy, exhilarating, heart-rate pumping, butterflies-in-your-stomach romance.

The most important thing to appreciate is that life is what we make it, each day is our own creation and it comes down to including in it some of the main activities we enjoy. Even while we have to work, and we are not all doing something that fills us with joy or passion - it's a job to live and pay the bills - we can still manage to include activities that please us. Sometimes that means sacrificing here and there. 
For instance, I love to train to I wake up earlier than I need to so I can dedicate enough time to training before work. 
Training before work gives me relief and satisfaction which I carry in my spirit for the rest of the day. It's swell. 

As I'm preparing to leave the office now, another day completed work-wise,  I acknowledge I had completely new experiences, new thoughts, new sensations. Some of it had to do with conversations and also with how I view certain relationships and people I see every day, or almost daily.

We can definitely expand each day, and that means each day is unique and thus not a mere repetition. It comes down to how far our mind chooses to plunge into the day's opportunities and how far it will be open to creating, or entering, new circumstances. 

I constantly affirm to the universe that I am open to the circumstances, ideas, thoughts, people and situations that will enhance my quality of life, my personal development and my ability to continue living authentically and joyfully.

I am not so clear yet what I will be doing in 1 year, and certainly not in 3 years, or 5. However, I'm taking it by the day, toddler steps, whilst understanding that I am already an adult, I have established a very solid foundation through education, work experience and the current resources/support my company is offering me. This means I can accelerate and move faster than otherwise...This means I have an opportunity at my fingertips.
I want to seize the opportunity and really evolve to be an even better, stronger and joyful, resplendent, fulfilled person. To utilize my qualities and skills, all of them, applying them in a useful, enjoyable and satisfying way, whilst enjoying life and the people with whom I share it.

This is the wish I've already submitted to the Universe and I know it hears me loud and clear - she hears me each and every time...The other key ingredient is for me to align my energy, to align my own self to allow in what the universe is wanting to give me, and to accept in eagerness, enthusiasm and grace (rather than overwhelming myself).

I want to channel my creativity in a useful, fun, enjoyable, creative, content-producing way. And to have a life-long passion I can pursue professionally, and delight in every second that I'm doing so.


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ps.
5 Feb 2013 - The workout! 6:45-8:15am

Upper body morning workout, following Jamie Eason's 30-Day Total-Body WO: 
Seated DB Shoulder Press - 15lbx10r 
DB Skullcrushers - 15lb/hand x10r + Narrow hold Chest pumps, 20x 
DB Lateral Raises - 10lbx12r, 12, 15 
Rear Delt DB Flyes, incline bench - 15lb x 15r 
Wide Grip Lat Pull-down - 55x12, 60lb x10, 60 x10, 65 x10r 
Reverse Grip Pull-Down - 110 x12, 120x10, 130x10 DB Curls - 2s: 15lb x12, 15lbx10, 15lbx20 Rope Bicep Curl: 2 sets, 60 x10r 
Spider Bicep Curl: 2sets, 15lb x 10 
Preacher Curl: 15lb x6, 10lb x20 
Bike Crunch - 3sets x25 
Mountain Climbers - 3sets x30 
Burpees - 3sets x 10

The hi-volume approach is targeting accelerating metabolism ergo fat burn. Awesome! 
I definitely feel it in my shoulders and back right now. :-) 
Happy training, y'all!!!
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Tuesday, January 28, 2014

"Homesick" - Poem by J.Arcila

Homesick

It seems we each made a deal
Sometime before birth, we agreed this is how it will be
This is how I'd like my life to go.

My life,
I'd like to share my time with these folks,
laugh at these times and cry at these others
It should all work in some balance,
Contrary Forces inevitably coexisting.

I chose to live this way.

Sometimes I miss that thing which I cannot name
The other half.
After some time, I am humbled by life experience
such that I no longer crave this mythical thing
that which I never had, the story the movies told.

I've been humbled.

Rather I am longing for a familiar time
A time with loved ones
I know it all too well, thankfully
A moment amongst many moments we have lived and shared.
Joyful, fun, whimsical and sincere instances of being family.

I miss my family
and they miss me too.
How is it we are oceans apart...
And yet so much love?
Ah yes - Contrary forces inevitably coexisting.
The path of life, the journey of the soul

Oh, the contrast really strikes my core,
Like a folk music player stringing familiar cords on his faithful wooden guitar.

The contrast sears my heart and bids me to conjure emotions of wanting and also,

Gratitude

For in the end we have this life to live
A family to love, somewhere
We made our choices well in advance.

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Hey Life! I'm happy :-)

Prayer to the universe / Wishes for January and 2014:

Wed. Jan. 22, 2014

- I want to more clearly and easily identify the wants, desires and elements that will contribute my overall long-lasting joy, peace and fulfillment.
- I want to have a profession towards which I can contribute and develop, for which I feel great love, passion and joy...
- I want to attract like-minded people into my life
- I want to spend all my time with like-minded, joyful, fun, kind people who appreciate and love me, and with whom I can be my very best, genuine self, and people who I appreciate sincerely as well.
- I want to continuously improve and strengthen my relationship with myself, my Inner Being, and to have an absolutely unshakeable, deep and love-filled relationship with myself.
- I want to have a constant flow of good-feeling thoughts, at all times.
- I want to feel good
- I want to appreciate myself and my life for all the beauty and greatness that it holds.
- I want to let go of limiting beliefs and old attitudes that are inconsistent with being free, easy-going, and joyful
- I want to live in the moment and love doing so!
- I want to let go of unhelpful attachments and feelings of ownevership towards any other person.
- I want to let go completely and fully of all feelings of jealousy, insecurity and doubt.
- I want to KNOW with all my heart and soul when I meet my wonderful, cool, fun and lovingly affectionate life partner - i want the bells and whistles, butterflies in my stomach and joyful passion/attraction when I see him - yes! :-D
Bells and whistles all the way hehe
- Let go
- To be such that my feelings are unbreakable and my feelings do not depend on others - not on how someone else treats me, not on elements that I cannot control or influence.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Vitality, Evolution & Gratitude - Key words to lead a happy life!

Today is far better day because I feel tons better as compared to yesterday. I am back to my normal well self. THANK GOD!!! :-)

I have my car back; all is well :)
Went yesterday evening to collect it and was fortunate enough to arrange a taxi service that works in this area and at a reasonable rate. During the drive there were serveral things that struck me:

- I was really appreciative of the "passenger" experience; once you drive yourself around for 97% of the time you don't get the chance to relax and take in the scenery. It reminded me of when I go on vacation, hire a taxi to take me around and explore the sights from the back seat. It's really wonderful, enjoyable and easy...Being a passenger entails an entirely different experience in getting from point A to point B.

- The driver asked me if I also required morning transport from home to work. Well, this struck me because it helped me realize that no matter what change in our situations, changes will open up new opportunities and ways to go about things. For instance, if I did not have personal vehicle and required daily transport to-from home-work, at first glance I would despair a bit, however, there are alternative services and means that will emerge once you find yourself in that situation.

There is always a way.
Find a Way
Don't give up

Being in a new location will open up new opportunities, new avenues, new modalities and novel experiences. I had almost forgotten this key reality of life.

It's like some spiritual teachers will says: "Once the problem emerges, the solution also automatically comes into creation". A problem is only defined as such because it precedes the solution. To label something a problem means there is a solution in the ether of the universe; it is already being manufactured.


Sunday, January 19, 2014

Feeling Emotional

Hey there, good morning beautiful world!
Today is a unique day already, my gosh...Well, not the usually smooth experience getting to work.

Why?
I took my car for service yesterday and thus I don't have my car this morning for my usual commute to work. This has happened before for prior services and so I had envisioned that I would take a taxi as usual and reach work normally.
However, it was not the case!
The first taxi I hailed refused to bring me to Jebel Ali as they are currently in great construction. I was very distraught, upset and disappointed. I wanted to cry...I've been refused by Taxi drivers before due to either too short distance, or too much traffic, whatever stupid f'ing excuse - it never feels good and doesn't seem to get easier for me to stomach, although I did not actually release any tears - at least, lol.

The 2nd cab also expressed hesitation and doubt however less adamantly so; he mentioned "there is a lot of traffic, blah blah blah you can take metro, better" - I did not say anything and let him drive. There were no words for me to reply as
(1) I was already feeling emotional, jittery and didn't want to actually break down in tears OR snap with a mad woman's rage which has easily happened on necessary occasions. I am all about healthfully standing up for yourself and defending your right but in this case I wanted to reach the office in a graceful, peaceful state of mind and being - not a hot mess; AND
(2) I felt no desire whatsoever to have to convince anyone of anything or debate on the best mode of transport; I need you to take me to X destination, this is your job, you are getting paid for it, period. Yalla.

Anyhow, the experience was quite different than what I am used to and it left me feeling a bit off kilter. I feel jittery, emotional, like I want to bawl! That's so funny, though, bc there's no need for it. In fact, perhaps I am just being *hormonal*...there are such days and it is not necessarily because of the monthly cycle.



Sometimes, every couple of months I have a day of this like deep sadness or weird anger...when I just want to bawl, cry out loud and etc. Well, that's not really what i want to indulge or enhance. What I really want is feel good, relaxed, at peace, calm...happy and easy-going. Perhaps I am in need of a nap...and my cortisol is particularly elevated.

I feel my nerves on edge...Not sure why.

Since this weekend, Friday and Saturday, I woke up feeling fine yet within next 15-30mins of getting up and preparing my coffee, food, morning ritual...I felt sort of BLAH. However, on Friday it was dissipated since we had a lovely picnic in the park with friends and that was most joyful.
Yesterday Saturday I also felt a tired all over my body - I felt sort of lost, and confused...partly bc I had to take my car early morn to service and I just had this overall kind of lack of directionality or deep in-ness with the moment. I dropped the car for svc and came back home to take the towels out to dry. Fortunately, the day was quite active and it was so wonderful to be spending it with friends at a house BBQ and also on a date which was very nice.

These days I find I'm improving in my ability to cope with times when my mood seems to be off...I just tell myself, "Hang on, it'll be over soon." And I start counting to distract myself_1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8...
It works.

The truth is today I feel emotional, sensitive and edgy. I hope it will pass soon. I want to sleep deeply, peacefully and soundly tonight. I want to live today calmly and successfully.
I want to be joyous with the things that ARE.
I am constantly reminding myself of my multiple, countless, incredible blessings. Simple things like having plenty of drinkable water at my disposal, being able to exercise, having a healthy, strong and vibrant body; eating nutritiously; having a lovely apartment to call my own where I can enjoy my time.

However, I will accept and acknowledge that today (as always) I am where I am...And where am I? Feeling sensitive, feeling emotional, feeling like crying so, so very much. It's crazy.
I know it will pass eventually. It is the contrast of feeling good vs. feeling blah that reminds me how terrific it is to feel good.

I am where I am. Hang on it'll be over soon...

The Ups & Downs of Hormones. Image by: Kareem Iliya. Source: http://www.realsimple.com/health/mind-mood/dealing-with-hormones-00000000029960/

ps. I am always thankful for my car...I miss you, Ford Fiesta. See you l8r :-)

Thursday, January 9, 2014

New Start 2014 - Sickness & Rebirth

Today is a brand new day…Wherever you are in the world, it was a new day or soon it is becoming a new day. A new birth, a fresh start, a reset to living this day in life.

Below are thoughts from a chat regarding the fact that I am home sick today recovering fully from a cold/flu. Winter season in Dubai also impacts the city's citizens, despite the overall pleasant and wonderful weather in the "Winter" months.
 Seasonal changes are felt by our bodies, apparently, no matter where we may be. 

Today is Thursday Jan. 9th 2014 - the first full week of the new year and I am home on sick leave as I visited the ER Last night. Visited City Hospital in Healthcare city and finished up at 1AM. Main issue was the worsening dry cough which I could no longer tolerate, esp since I live alone and having no one around for moral support seems to aggravate symptoms.
Being in the ER I became more aware and realized that there are so many maladies in life that affect us all. Some people have far worse situations than you or me. I am so grateful for the slight unwellness I have since it is curable and ordinary in the bigger scheme of things.

There are more things to appreciate from this experience:

Dear God, Dear Universe,
- Thank you because I live in a city with easy access to clean, hygienic and professional healthcare
- Thank you for my Health Insurance which is provided by my company and which allows me to pay a really minimal fee for several expensive treatments (Xray, MRI, blood tests, MD consultation, ER Visit, etc)
- Thank you for my car which reliably and comfortably allowed me to drive a long distance to see a medical professional to treat a bodily ailment at the moment I desired to do so.
- Thank you for the medicine that is easily available in the pharmacy which helps in the recovery process
- Thank you for the medicine which really makes a huge difference and helps to recover and sleep deeply
- Thank you because this experience of being alone in sickness shows me my true inner strength; I care about myself, I care about how I feel, I want to feel good, and I know the universe is helping me in meeting with the medical professionals who care about helping me get better. 
- Thank you for this day of rest and the fact that I am able to rest when it is necessary and helpful
- Thank you for the kind and thoughtful friends who express concern for my wellbeing.
- Thank you bc I have many modalities at my disposal to feel better, strengthen my immune system and become stronger.

Further thoughts stemming from the whole thing:

I am feeling better I think bc I have peace of mind from having seen the doctor. Once I got home I no longer had the pesky, nagging dry cough and rather felt more relaxed. The doc prescribed the same antibiotic (Amoxycillin) that I had already started taking the night prior - so my self-prescription was accurate and luckily I have a box of unfinished Amoxyl from some previous moment.

When we r alone w/o anyone at home i.e. family, it sometimes makes health conditions a bit aggravated, perhaps bc of psychological aspect of being sick and vulnerable, and thus you may exhibit symptoms bit more strongly. The reason I say it is bc the whole day I was at work I didn't cough or feel major discomfort. HOwever, as soon as I set foot in my apt and was having my dinner I started coughing up - grrrrrr. That's why I went to the hospital - I wanted help and immediate relief from people instead of the small bottles of cough suppressants and expectorants which seemed to have diminished in effectiveness.

Anyhow, I went to ER (first in Ibn Battuta and then Healthcare City) and he said it seems like the cold/flu that is affecting many people right now
Perhaps people in UAE climate, we are no longer used to being strongly immune to weather changes. So any slight coldness is more of a 'hit' to the system.

Plus, I think I was training too much, 2hr+ per day during vacation and then continued when work resumed, waking up at 5:30am to train thinking that by ignoring my symptoms I would push it away into oblivion. 

This strategy of ignoring does not seem to have worked. 

So now I have forced rest, which is fine too and probably necessary.
I've noticed that during periods when I have been intense with my training it eventually culminates in a brief span where I get some cold which obliges me to rest and recover for 2-3 days, perhaps 1 week. It tends to help I suppose to reset the body, muscles, and to come back stronger than ever.

Ironically, sometimes it's harder to be calm and still, as opposed to just going at it (training, etc) intensely, pushing hard and beating yourself up. That's what gym/fitness obsession can do to you!

Well, today is a whole day of wellness and I will visit the sauna and my friends at the gym in hopes of further boosting my immune and nervous system. Sauna is considered to have curative properties, and perhaps I will RDV with like-minded friends at the gym, which is always pleasant, enjoyable and welcome to me.

There is always something positive to be gleaned from any situation, regardless of the circumstances. I am still eternally thankful for the blessings that life shares with me. I hope to continue growing, expanding and enriching this positive mindset and to eternally develop my strength and to deepen the relationship with my Inner Being.  

Be your own best friend, and the rest will follow, line up, and align.


Love,
Jen <3 <3 <3