Positive Aspects - Count My Blessings 1x1

Dear Lord, Dear Self, Dear Higher Guidance and infinite intelligence and Higher Wisdom,

I come before you and with you now - (and in fact we are always connected, aren't we?) - to focus on the good, positive and love-filled path. It is the track of Source or God energy to amplify and grow the goodness in our lives, starting individually and then that energy radiates and emanates henceforth. 

These are worldly terms for The One Life Force, or Creator.

Thank you for this day. Thank you for my life. I love my life and I love God.

Life loves me and God loves, adores, values and cherishes me.

I am encouraged and boosted from my higher forces and I am surrounded by the Love of Angels.

Thank you for waking me so pleasantly, peacefully and serenely this morning. In my home, my own private bed, my own space to have privacy, joy, ease of movement and comfort. 

Thank you for our morning walk and taking in the fresh air and sunshine. It's a blessing to walk freely in terms of physical health and capability. It is a twofold blessing in the sense that so many other countries are still in lock-down mode or facing the soaring numbers of Covid. 

We are fortunate - I am really, deeply fortunate - to be in Dubai. 

I am thankful I went to the gym ensuing my outdoor walk and lifted weights, trained my shoulders and abs. It's a blessing to have an open, accessible, and conveniently-situated gym that is well stocked and well maintained and where fellow residents can also exercise. 

 Thank you!

Thank you for my amazing, loving, kind family. Thank you for so much love we share and good harmonization - with my loving, kind mother, father and phenomenal brother.

Thank you for my job and employment and how it prospers me in financial wealth and social fabric and in mental/emotional well-being. 

Thank you for my healthy, nourishing foods and drinks - herbal teas and clean, purified water. These are magnificent! Thank you for strengthening and empowering me to choose my foods and drinks and THOUGHTS with wisdom, intelligence, planning and joy. 

Thank you for my magnificent colleagues and the nice, pleasant, well-kept office premises.

THank you for my most decent and humane, pleasant and excellent boss.

I really appreciate where I am in life and eager for more development, expansion and movement forward into feeling even more satisfaction in my profession and career.

I love and appreciate my relationships - my magnificent, amazing, one-of-a-kind Friends! Those blessed beings with whom I share the good and bad stories and our rollercoaster journey through life.

We enjoy wonderful laughs and good outings. Thank you so much for my friends!

Thank you, thank you for so much health and vitality and energy in my body! Thank you for my amazing and awesome, remarkable, extraordinary body which carries me cheerfully through my daily life.

Gratitude List - November 11, 2016 - Health is Wealth & Love is the Blessing

Gratitude List - 11/11/2016

Dear Lord, Thank you for so many blessings in my life and the life of my loved ones.

• Thank you for our amazing health, wellbeing and vitality - thank you bc we are generally in perfect, amazing health!
• Thk you for a wonderful night's sleep and my comfortable bed.
• Thk you for our heating system which warms up our home so very well in this winter
• Thk you Lord for my computer here at home where I can type my documents and essays with ease and comfort
• Thk you, Lord, for my easy breath, healthy lungs, organs and all vital parts and components of my body - Thank you, Spirit, for my perfect, lovely and salubrious, abundant health. Health is truly an irreplaceable wealth - the source of life itself.
• Thk you for our electricity, water and clean water to drink, wash with and clean.
• Thk u for the greens drink this and every morning which I can consume easily; it helps and supports my digestive health and optimizes my overall vitality and wellbeing. It's marvelous.
• I am so grateful I can read and connect and tune into the Tarot Cards - it is fun, magical and I receive guidance, and communicate with, my Higher Self and Soul Self and Guides
• Tk you, Lord, for our meditation this morning. I am grateful to my own special Self bc I do meditate each morning and I do my breathing and the nasal cleansing which helps me open my 3rd eye and spiritual centers.
• I am extremely robustly tremendously grateful and thankful, Lord, for the all the love and light in my heart.
• Thk you, Lord, bc my parents have good work, as do I, as does my brother, and we are compensated so very well for the work we do.
• I am so so so extremely tremendously and incredibly thankful, Spirit, bc I do the work I love to do, that inspires and uplifts me, connects me to my Soul and fulfills, nourishes and replenishes my spiritual, physical and mental bodies...and I do this work daily for the people I love and who love me back, and I am so very well paid for it - I am so very well financial compensated for doing the work I LOVE to do and itself is an incredible blessing that is beyond words.
• I am so remarkably blessed to be in a loving family and I love and appreciate this, God. I am so very thankful for our loving family, sincere, natural and open. This is beauty of God's creation.
• I am so thankful and grateful for all the lovely people in the world who share their spiritual gifts helping us others also align further and get more clarity and more inner balance and peace so that we can harmonize with our Soul's intentions. 
• I also set my intention to be completely self-loving and I am so thankful for this too! IT's wonderful to know that now I fully and totally do approve and validate myself. I am self-resourcing, self-fulfilling and self-complete and self-balancing...All the love is within me and God is always, always, always with me. I choose to open my pathways to connect with Source continuously and to be aligned with my Soul and to be Love, feel Love and let all the Love in. 

Thank you. Om,  Peace,  Love Shanti

The Magic - Daily Gratitude

Thanks to a recent catch-up with a good friend who shared with me the wonders of the book "The Magic", by Rhonda Byrne (same author of The Secret), I've decided to follow the book again. I had purchased the book almost 2+ years ago, started reading and then somewhere along the way fell off its trail and it slipped into temporary oblivion.

Anyways, Practice 1 is to write your list of 10 things for which your are grateful, every day/morning.
Here is today - Day3:

1. I am really grateful for this fresh, new day because it's a new opportunity at life, to enjoy time with the people a like and who love me, to be a cocreator, and to have fun and enjoy the life experience.
2. I am so thankful for this morning's fasted swim; I loved it because it helps me to take rest from gym while also burning fat, boosting my metabolism and keeping my muscles activated.
3. I so deeply appreciate the beauty of the morning time, especially today poolside; the radiant sun gives me energy and tans me, the birds are flying high and free, singing their bird songs, and the air is clean, fresh, new. It is peaceful and supporting; kind and caring; loving.
4. I really appreciate my safe and convenient drive to work because I reached safely and in good time; i like the flow of things.
5. I feel really grateful for the delicious decaf coffee I had; perfect taste, hot and nicely complementing my breakfast.
6. I really appreciate the nice person who took my pic this morning in bathing suit because i was able to really see progress in my physical development, and to appreciate who I am much more.
7. I totally love and am thankful for the safe, supportive, collegial and professional work environment where I work.
8. I am so thankful for the free car parking my company offers; bc of it I have a secure place where I leave my car the whole day, for free.
9. I am so thankful for my colleagues and all my peers at work, and everyone I interact with, bc everyone is a co-creator and our interactions gives us all more clarity and guidance on what we prefer (and don't prefer). There is a ton of valuable feedback in our daily interactions.
10. I am so thankful for last night's amazing sleep bc today I had great, positive energy and exuberance; I appreciate being able to appreciate and how thinking about these marvelous things enhance my sense of living and quality of life.

 What 10 things are you thankful for today? :-)

Personal Maxims - Things I Know To Be True

Good morning!

Happy & great morning to you :-D

It's a beautiful, blessed and magnificent new day. New adventures, magic and love are here upon us. I'm really looking forward to this day's unfolding. It has already begun in a magnificent and fun way. Awesome! Sometimes words are not enough to completely encompass and transmit our feelings and that is OK. At times it is better to simply FEEL and let it be without trying to narrow it down into verbal, written form.

Whenever you catch yourself in a moment of bliss where you are feeling a lot and somehow you don't find the perfect words to express what this means for you, just let it be and simply FEEL IT. Allow yourself to bask in that emotion, that beautiful feeling, that experience. You will set this more deeply into your memory and psyche and allow your heart and soul to connect more deeply with the moment.

Some moments are too exquisite and God-like to shape into human form and language. 

That's special and when you experience such moments realize that you are blessed.

Things I believe & know to be true:

• God is my strength
• God's love, strength, and grace makes all things possible.
• Everything happens for a reason.
• I love to love.
• I love to be at peace.
• Things are always working for me.

• We deserve to be happy.
• Gratitude is the key to happiness.
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• We all want to love and be loved.
• I am always in the right place at the right time.
• Things happen at the right time.
• We all like and seek clarity.
• I don't need to know how things will work out; I trust they will.
• I don't need to know why things happened as they did; some things are not for me to know and that is divine.
• Soul Mate Love is my destiny.
• Trusting feels good.
• It feels good to move forward.
• It feels good to Connect.
• People want to be appreciated, recognized and understood.
• Love makes all things possible.
• True Love starts within, with our Self.
• Thoughts create reality.
• Mind is a powerful ally; our mind has unlimited potential.
• We are more powerful than we think.
• I am more than I appear to be. The strength and power of the Universe rests inside of me. (From "The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari" by Robin Sharma)
• When your heart and soul truly, deeply desire a dream, the whole Universe conspires in your favor to make it a reality.
• We want something because we think that in the having of it we will feel better.
• The purpose of my life is to live in joy, peace, love and appreciation.
• Laughter is powerful medicine.
• Mother Nature has healing powers for the heart and soul.
• All things take time; patience is learned over time.
• Every day in every way I am getting better.
• Life keeps getting better and better.
• The universe is always providing signs; just pay attention.
• If it feels like you have to try too hard or it's just not easily working out, and it takes you away from being yourself and feeling good - let it go, it's not for you.
• I am responsible for my happiness, nobody else.
• I am not responsible for anyone else's happiness.
• I am whole and complete; everything I need to thrive and succeed exists within me.

2014 in Review - WOW - Thanks, Facebook

Hey Gorgeous, Hey Handsome! 

Facebook generated this 2014 overview: https://www.facebook.com/arcila.jennifer


Looking it over, it's apparent 2014 was a year to develop and sow the seeds of RELATIONSHIPS, FRIENDSHIPS, FAITH AND SPIRITUALITY. There is certainly FITNESS overall as that is my main hobby...THank you, dearest loved ones, for being a part of this magnificent and joyous experience.
It's been a great year! Thanks for being a part of it.

In 2015 what will I do? 
How will I focus?
What will I achieve?
How will I thrive, delight and inspire myself and others?

I will focus on LOVE, ease, wellbeing, taking it easy, and releasing resistance. I more aligned than ever to have and enjoy the physique of my dreams - a sexy, tone, lean, fit and healthy body which I enjoy with comfort, joy, convenience, satisfaction and total confidence.

I am no longer concerned with meeting the man of my dreams, because what I do know is that I am the woman of my dreams. If he lives in my dreams then how can he enter my physical reality?
Nah...The most important relationship is the one if have with GOD, Source Energy, myself and my Inner Being.

I care about how I feel, all is well and getting 'weller'. 
Things are always working out for me.
I am always at the right place at the perfect time.
I support and encourage myself; words of self-criticim and judgement are no longer part of my psyche and vocabulary.
Complaints are a thing of the past, and I am solutions oriented.

I smile a bright, full, genuine and gorgeous smile.
I believe in the best of myself and support my greatest possibilities. My subconscious is Infinite Intelligence and I feed it empowering, caring and kind messages that support attainment of my heart's desires. 
It's magnificent. I am a magician and intuitive being, I feel clairvoyant and wise beyond my years. 
I know my purpose in life, I know why I am on earth, and I totally appreciate this time-space reality to be myself and the fullest expression of God in my unique vessel and energy.

I fulfill my life purpose each day; I do what makes my heart sing.
I do what I love and I love what I do.
I am committed to my wellbeing and alignment, and that's just divine. 
I am loving the supportive friendships, situations and experiences that enter my reality continuously.
I am always surrounded by love.
I expect the very best and I always receive it. 
Thank you, God, for all that is.
xx
<3 

-All my love,Jennifer Arcila

Always the right time to be Thankful

I wrote this email draft (below) to myself back in June 2014 and as I've cleaned up my inbox recently I came across this gem. It seems like I wrote in a moment of deeply felt inspiration and joy. Now I'm bringing it to the light of day :-). It's always the right moment to be thankful and it always feels good.

Working with NLP and Coaching I've learned about the power of language and to be aware of Meta Model language violations with terms like: Always, never, all and everyone.

However, rules have exceptions and this is one of them :) Gratitude will always make you feel better and improve your outlook on life.
Love you all,
xx

Written between June 8-15, 2014

Dear God,

Thank you so very much for absolutely everything! THank you, thank you, thank you.
Thank you so much for our wellness time, thank you for my lovely friends at work, and outside of work;
Thank you for this delicious tea, thank you for my flexible, strong and beautiful, sexy body;
Thank you for my mother, father and brother; thank you for my family and their support and love;

I'm so grateful for the fresh air, the safety of living in Dubai

The beautiful apartment in which I live
thank you for all the money and abundance in my life!

Thank you for my parents and brother in good health;

thank you for all my wonderful ideas and creativity.
Thank you for the delicious food I have at my disposal at ALL times; thank you for the interesting, enjoyable and fun conversations I have with my colleagues and friends. Thank you, so, so, so much!

Thank you for the SMILESSS :-) I love smiles and hellos and good mornings :)

Thank you for my amazing JOB, thx for my wonderful, awesome BOSS

Thanks for my computer at home and at work - thanks for my seat in this spacious and well-ventilated office.

Thx for my privacy and calm seating here where I am - I can focus and also observe the hallway activity if i want.

Thx u for my bed, AC, kitchen, bathroom, running water; drinking water, coffee, my decent and respectful neighbors.

Thank you for my location living in Dubai and my neighborhood Dubai Marina.
Thank you for the opportunity to meditate, to have time to myself; time to be at peace, thanks for my peace of mind.

Thanks for my decent and respectful boss - my wonderful understanding colleagues;

Thank you for the interesting, enlightening, fun and exciting times and experiences I've had with each one of my past Boyfriends - those experiences have all expanded my self-awareness, self-knowledge, and understanding - it is more life experience.

Thank you for all the wonderful, loving, affectionate, thoughtful and sweet kind men and guys I've met and known - there are wonderful examples of good, upright, reliable and loyal, caring men - so, so wonderful.

Thank you for my creativity - and for my ability to ask.

I don't need to know HOW - just need to have FAITH.

Today I Write - Intention on 21 Nov 2014

Dear God,
A Poem for today:

My Heart Sings

Today I want to write because my heart sings in joy.

Today I write because my fingers and my thoughts are engaging in this verbal tango.

An emotional spiral of ideas, a flurry of expressions, and series of previously-unspoken potential - now manifested.

I write now right now because I can; I've done it before and I loved it.

8:16AM on 21/11/14
Just had a delicious nutritious breakfast, listening to Abraham Hicks, and I'm ready to set my intention.
I intend to focus on my alignment and care about how I feel; I am the creator of my own reality.
I choose my 'high-flying disc' and I intend to focus on feelings of joy.
Today and tomorrow I have the amazing opportunity to learn, develop my Coaching and NLP skills; to deepen and expand my awareness. Thank you, God, for this amazing gift.

I intend to notice the small acts of kindness, the smiles, all the favors along the way; the bliss of receiving far beyond my expectations.
I delightfully anticipate RDV'ing with like-minded people who are also high-flyers, lovers of life, who can inspire me and with whom to share ideas.
I love connection.
I choose the path of least resistance; to go with the flow; to trust my intuition...To channel any emotion into applicable information and data; there is no failure, only feedback.

There are so many valuable insights that I am ready to perceive and receive. There are so many wonderful experiences and delightful situations waiting in my vibrational reality - in my Vortex a la Abraham Hicks.

Education is wealth.
Health is wealth.
Love is wealth.
Joy is wealth.
Peace of mind and healthy mental functioning is wealth.

Dearest friends, family and lover,
If we consider these beautiful notions then we comprehend just how blessed and wealthy we really are.

We are only limited by our beliefs and mental Maps of the world. Our thoughts shape and define the world we perceive;

Quality thoughts = Quality Life

Thank you in advance for the wonderful soulful lover and life companion entering my life soon enough. 

Thank you for the amazing, strong and resilient woman I am and becoming more and more still.

You know what I really enjoy? Newness! Expanding my awareness and learning more to increase my appreciation for life. I love when I effectively uplift myself and subsequently hold enough self-empowerment to uplift others. 

Our life and reality is a like a Cruise along the Atlantic, traversing the Globe. We are all in this vessel together riding the crests of waves, and peacefully cruising through the calm waters; sleeping through the darkness of nights and thriving in the resplendence of sunshine. There are moments to celebrate and then there are the calm, routine elements of the cruise experience. All along our cruise we stop in different ports and harbors, meet new folks, buy new knickknacks and then we're ready to go back on board. That's how each day is - unloading at the port and having a new exposure on the meta-journey. 

And all along our Cruise vessel is the permanent, floating atop the majestic strength of Mother Earth. Some elements of the unknown future and some excitement. Ups and downs, and all along the beautiful constancy of your inner self on the journey.

I'm really looking forward to our next harbor stop - it is so much fun! :-)

Love you all, God bless xx

Dear God, Thank you

Wed 12 Nov 2014

Dear God,

I want to take the time to thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you so very much from the wholeness of my heart and soul for all the blessings that you are gifting me here and now.

Thank you so much because you have helped me to overcome old heartbreak and healed my heart completely. I feel so good today, here and now, living in the light. Thank you because I have really moved on and have come to embrace the fullness of me, who I am and the deep, eternal love you have for me and that I have found bit by bit for myself. I've been improving on a daily basis and this self-love helps me be a better friend, colleague, daughter, sister, Coach, and contributing member to our global community. Love is #1 and love starts from within.

Truly, love is all we need. The love from within.

It's been a long journey; an interesting, spiritual, soulful and uplifting experience. It's been 2 years since the completion of that relationship experience and I've entered new territory in my self development and evolution.

I pray for my friends and others going through their own journey to self-discovery and self-love. That they, too, find sooner or later, the core of love within themselves rather than projecting it onto an external party, the lover, the desired other. I pray that my friends find peace too, because peace is the relief we seek.

It feels great to be in love in a mutually reciprocating dynamic. It feels the best when you love yourself so, so much that your happiness does not depend or stem on anyone else. That is amazing and that is power. That is the blessing and God's gift.

Thank you for helping me and guiding me, for holding my hand, to overcome depression, anorexia, humble beginnings and the pangs of loneliness. Thank you for always being with me, the constant source of my resilience and tenacity.

It is really such a BLESSING and breath of fresh air for my soul to feel free of suffering, free of the self-imposed pain of perceived rejection and non-reciprocated love.
I am grateful for where I am today...It's been through God's grace and strength that I have my current strength and grace. Peace. Peace of mind is invaluable. It is worth diamonds, rubies and the most precious stones on earth.

Peace of mind. Yes!

Thank you, God, for the beautiful music you've created through majestic composers of classical music.
Thank you, for the beautiful birds and butterflies; the fun, belly-hurting, joyous laughs shared with friends and family.
Thank you for the magic and sacredness of morningtime, its fresh air, undisturbed silence, quiet, newness, the opportunity to start again and give it your very best. To co-create and have fun; to live a new day.

Thank you for my fabulous job where I am appreciated and cared for.

God, thank you for taking care of me always. Together we have traveled to so many distant lands and you've always brought me back in one piece with more magnificent memories, souvenirs and enriching experiences.
Thank you for the financial abundance I experience on a daily basis, and which multiplies continuously. Thank you for your protection; for my home, for my adoring family, and the loving, caring beings with whom I share my life experience.

Thank you for my vibrant and healthy, strong body. You have really gifted me with a remarkable vessel that takes me to an infinity of places and it performs amazing feats. I am truly blessed.

Thank you for the health of my organs, muscles, cells, ligaments, all the elements of my being; my body is such a wise entity it is astounding. It contains an unfathomable vastness of wisdom and knowledge...It does everything, it is a universe unto itself. WOW.

I am happy where I am and eager for more. Eager for more joy, more self-love, more peace, more passion, more focus on my life purpose; I am eager to feel my power and step into my self fully. I am eager to be more creative, more confident, wiser.To be who I really am in all of your greatness and to manifest the very best of myself to the world to bring greater good and positivity to all our surroundings and global community. And so that I thrive and delight in my earth experience.

I want to be my fullest self as the fullest expression of YOU.
There are so many possibilities and exciting experiences in my life being created each second. Many loves, more abundance, more success, more clarity, and a singular fabulous life-mate you have custom-designed for me :-).

I am SO excited to continue evolving, improving, feeling more of your peace and LOVE.

Just being awesome. I am awesome, life is awesome. I am so loved and appreciated.  Thank you for taking care of me, and for helping me control my thoughts.

The world and life we live is a result of our thoughts.

Quality Thoughts, Quality Life.

I love you! :-)

Overcoming Emotional Lows: Deliberately Choosing My Thoughts

 Emotions & Thoughts - 

The Power of Deliberate Choice

We all have our ups and downs, and today I experienced one of those emotional “lows” while training – thank God it’s an increasingly unusual phenomenon in my reality :-). Somehow I was feeling a rising tide of sad thoughts, loneliness, etc. For some bizarre reason I felt teary, sad, blah and then I thought it must be hormonal. I asked myself, Why??? Where is this coming from???

In fact, there was no basis or foundation for my low emotions – I have every reason in the Universe to be joyful, happy and ecstatic. And I am. Still, today these feelings were just lightly floating onto my reality perhaps seeking to plant themselves. Even if it is hormonal this is NOT how I want to feel. 

With the power of my will and magnificent brain, I stopped and ‘looked” at those thoughts and acknowledged that these unhelpful, unresourceful thoughts are not me – they are simply floating thoughts passing by, and I chose to let them pass away.

*Consciousness*

I took the initiative to give this interplay of thoughts and feelings a physical manifestation by drawing – in a sense taking control of them, rather than letting them amplify and take control of me.

That’s when I held 2 contradictory thoughts – (1) We are what we think about, and (2) You are NOT your thoughts, thoughts are simply thoughts and don’t necessarily define you.

I concluded that I am the thoughts I CHOOSE and the thoughts I consciously SELECT and entertain as my focus; I am not those thoughts that drop in willy-nilly from time to time who knows from where, and which serve no benefit in my overall reality.

Any situation in life is how we *choose* to interpret it and the meaning we assign to it; things, people, places and experiences only have value because we CHOOSE to view them so.

I choose to use my brain, mental faculties, and I choose to want to always feel great, happy and loved.

In life, some things come and stay; and some things come and go forevermore.

Thoughts are exactly the same.

Every day is a journey and there is always, always, always something to be grateful for. Love is all around us, surrounding you and me. Abundance supersedes all things and permeates every facet of our experience if we consciously put on our “Spectacles of Abundance" :-).

2 Invaluable Blessings: Freedom of Choice and Peace of Mind

Love <3 xoxo

Relationships - The end-all, be-all?

Deep down, do I really want a relationship?

Why do we seek relationships beyond basic family and friendship?

The topic of amorous/romantic Relationship seems to be a central pivotal topic for almost 95% of humanity. Perhaps it is indeed the biological urge to procreate; the innate drive to connect and socialize; a fixed remaining trait from the biblical story of Adam & Eve, the pairing concept - that is, if you believe in that particular faith. No matter what the religion, relationship and coupling is a consistent theme and seems to be what makes the world go round.

Of course this applies to me - I think about a relationship for me every day in one way or another. Whether it be by acknowledging I'm attracted to someone; or by feeling satisfied and happy with life and thus sensing that maybe I don't need a relationship to feel "whole"; or by hearing the stories and conversing with friends who themselves are facing similar lack of intimacy or having someone special.

In any case, I've had a rocky road on my journey to emotional self-discovery in terms of relationships. Since High School I desperately felt a calling in my soul to have someone special, a Boyfriend, yet it did not happen them. Through college I met a few guys, went on a few dates but nothing lasting or heart-moving. Then post-college I had a few boyfriends as well, more significant and especially 2-3 guys who remain the two most vivid examples of how I am in a real relationship.

Ironically, the 2 more significant relationships were experienced with two men who were dramatically opposite from each other in terms of how we had a relationship. With one guy it was perfect, enjoyable, loving and sweet; with the other, it was passionate, extreme, difficult, uncertain, confusing, and familiar. With the former, it ended because I was obliged to leave the country where he lived and ultimately the long-distance setup was not what I wanted.

For the latter, it ended because of very different socio-economic and cultural backgrounds. When we first met and throughout our time together we had incredible passion and attraction. In my eyes he was the most handsome man in the universe - I felt butterflies in my tummy whenever I saw him. It was really something unique for my heart. However, there were oceans between us in terms of communication, life conditions and where we were in our respective lives. It's like we were on different planets with much too different backgrounds, families and ingrained mindsets...trying to connect and make it work to no avail. It lasted 1.5 year, we lived together which was a first for me, and it was a special experience indeed.

Eventually we separated without any official break-up. He lost his job, took his things, left Dubai and later came back to the UAE. After several months of no communication I was no longer open to allowing him back into my life because the pain of his first departure was too great, and I already felt that with the strong habits of the past, it could happen again. My heart is great however it is too soft in love, and another pain like that would be disastrous and take up precious energy and time of my well-being which I value and enjoy much more.

All of this to say that it has been 5 months since I last saw him or communicated with him. Five months doesn't seem like a terribly long time considering the depth of my feelings however it's a very helpful duration that has allowed for distance, growth and my evolution. Now I am at an incredibly advanced place emotionally and I have emerged from that experience stronger, full of courage and full of more self-loved than I have ever known.

I've forgiven us both for all the different ways in which we may have hurt each other. In the end, we only hurt ourselves in these situations. Sometimes we seek drama and enjoy it, like a drug and the addict, and if I am honest with myself a part of me was really drawn to the drama - it made me feel alive.

Happy Moving On!

The momentum of life is to move forward, evolve, progress and adapt to change.

I feel really glad and grateful about moving on with my feelings and letting go of the past. I want to continue loving myself, loving my life and loving the wonderful friends and family in my surroundings. I count my blessings each day, and I cannot count them all because there are so many! That is really a precious gift of life and the Universe.

And so, having gone through this internal self-strengthening journey I realize that I am whole, I feel complete, I have great joy and love in my life. It stems firstly from me - and that in turn attracts it towards me, bees to the honey :) Law of Attraction in action.

There are moments where I think that I am missing out on that special connection, and well, in reality I am still waiting for it. Then again, I realize the most important connection is with myself and being OK with all that is.

Sometimes we put too many expectations on the fictional other which they cannot realistically fulfill, or else they have those qualities but there are other issues or unexpected surprise aspects of sharing with them.

And so, my main philosophy right now is to live in the moment, appreciate this very moment as it is and to make peace with what is. Accepting the boring moments, the routine, the repetition, and temporary lows. It also means more joyously embracing the happy times I have now with friends and loved ones. Sometimes we are waiting and waiting for X to happen to be happy, and then it finally happens and one of two things happens, or both:
1) We experience initial euphoria and elation, satisfaction and joy and then it wears off
2) It is not such a big deal as we expected and you realize it brings up other complications

It means that so often we are delaying our own joy in the wait for a future great thing to happen which is not in our control - there is no way to know if it will happen. You take it on Faith.

And thus, it may or may not happen...
We should appreciate this moment now and make peace with what IS. Enjoy it, embrace it, allow it...Be Ok, be strong, be courageous, be YOU, be with the people you already love and who already love you, and spend all your time doing the things you love or thinking about when and how you do things you love.

That is all I can do. And that is a lot!

It is creating, molding, adoring, respecting, valuing and connecting with my reality and inner truth. 

Allowing, being, doing and loving...It is my intention to take it one day at a time and seek my joy.

I even feel gratitude I can express myself in these words and share my creativity with the world.

xx :)

New Start 2014 - Sickness & Rebirth

Today is a brand new day…Wherever you are in the world, it was a new day or soon it is becoming a new day. A new birth, a fresh start, a reset to living this day in life.

Below are thoughts from a chat regarding the fact that I am home sick today recovering fully from a cold/flu. Winter season in Dubai also impacts the city's citizens, despite the overall pleasant and wonderful weather in the "Winter" months.

 Seasonal changes are felt by our bodies, apparently, no matter where we may be. 

Today is Thursday Jan. 9th 2014 - the first full week of the new year and I am home on sick leave as I visited the ER Last night. Visited City Hospital in Healthcare city and finished up at 1AM. Main issue was the worsening dry cough which I could no longer tolerate, esp since I live alone and having no one around for moral support seems to aggravate symptoms.

Being in the ER I became more aware and realized that there are so many maladies in life that affect us all. Some people have far worse situations than you or me. I am so grateful for the slight unwellness I have since it is curable and ordinary in the bigger scheme of things.

There are more things to appreciate from this experience:

Dear God, Dear Universe,

- Thank you because I live in a city with easy access to clean, hygienic and professional healthcare

- Thank you for my Health Insurance which is provided by my company and which allows me to pay a really minimal fee for several expensive treatments (Xray, MRI, blood tests, MD consultation, ER Visit, etc)

- Thank you for my car which reliably and comfortably allowed me to drive a long distance to see a medical professional to treat a bodily ailment at the moment I desired to do so.

- Thank you for the medicine that is easily available in the pharmacy which helps in the recovery process

- Thank you for the medicine which really makes a huge difference and helps to recover and sleep deeply

- Thank you because this experience of being alone in sickness shows me my true inner strength; I care about myself, I care about how I feel, I want to feel good, and I know the universe is helping me in meeting with the medical professionals who care about helping me get better. 

- Thank you for this day of rest and the fact that I am able to rest when it is necessary and helpful

- Thank you for the kind and thoughtful friends who express concern for my wellbeing.

- Thank you bc I have many modalities at my disposal to feel better, strengthen my immune system and become stronger.

Further thoughts stemming from the whole thing:

I am feeling better I think bc I have peace of mind from having seen the doctor. Once I got home I no longer had the pesky, nagging dry cough and rather felt more relaxed. The doc prescribed the same antibiotic (Amoxycillin) that I had already started taking the night prior - so my self-prescription was accurate and luckily I have a box of unfinished Amoxyl from some previous moment.

When we r alone w/o anyone at home i.e. family, it sometimes makes health conditions a bit aggravated, perhaps bc of psychological aspect of being sick and vulnerable, and thus you may exhibit symptoms bit more strongly. The reason I say it is bc the whole day I was at work I didn't cough or feel major discomfort. HOwever, as soon as I set foot in my apt and was having my dinner I started coughing up - grrrrrr. That's why I went to the hospital - I wanted help and immediate relief from people instead of the small bottles of cough suppressants and expectorants which seemed to have diminished in effectiveness.

Anyhow, I went to ER (first in Ibn Battuta and then Healthcare City) and he said it seems like the cold/flu that is affecting many people right now

Perhaps people in UAE climate, we are no longer used to being strongly immune to weather changes. So any slight coldness is more of a 'hit' to the system.

Plus, I think I was training too much, 2hr+ per day during vacation and then continued when work resumed, waking up at 5:30am to train thinking that by ignoring my symptoms I would push it away into oblivion. 

This strategy of ignoring does not seem to have worked. 

So now I have forced rest, which is fine too and probably necessary.

I've noticed that during periods when I have been intense with my training it eventually culminates in a brief span where I get some cold which obliges me to rest and recover for 2-3 days, perhaps 1 week. It tends to help I suppose to reset the body, muscles, and to come back stronger than ever.

Ironically, sometimes it's harder to be calm and still, as opposed to just going at it (training, etc) intensely, pushing hard and beating yourself up. That's what gym/fitness obsession can do to you!

Well, today is a whole day of wellness and I will visit the sauna and my friends at the gym in hopes of further boosting my immune and nervous system. Sauna is considered to have curative properties, and perhaps I will RDV with like-minded friends at the gym, which is always pleasant, enjoyable and welcome to me.

There is always something positive to be gleaned from any situation, regardless of the circumstances. I am still eternally thankful for the blessings that life shares with me. I hope to continue growing, expanding and enriching this positive mindset and to eternally develop my strength and to deepen the relationship with my Inner Being.  

Be your own best friend, and the rest will follow, line up, and align.

Love,

Jen <3 <3 <3