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Thursday, May 11, 2023
Wednesday, September 14, 2022
Eating Too Much Melon? Freaking out about Calories (1 Sept '22)
Hello World,
It's me again... and journaling my thoughts.
The First Meal:
Today at breakfast/lunch (3:45pm) I had bigger amount of melon than what I usually have. Usually I've eat about 300-500g of melon, and that, along perhaps with something else, keeps me fine till I reach home and have dinner at 7pm or ideally I'd have dinner earlier at 6:30pm.
However, today I pushed myself (for some reason) to finish the melon that I brought from home bc it was already about 5 days since I'd bought it and cut into it, and the longer it sits in the fridge the more mold and decomposed it gets. Hence, I decided "Just do it" and actually it was a very good, delicious, hydrating melon.
Only melon.
However when I finished what I'd brought, approximately 700grams eaten, I felt bad bc the calories then ingested were more than usual AND I then had the anxious thought:
"I overate and now my lower abs will push out and I'll be a bit more bloated." Ugh. The despised bloat lol.
However, that was my own exaggeration and assumption and 'jumping ahead to worst case scenario".
I promptly went about my moment, the afternoon, and rinsed my teeth, and then a postprandial walk. It was a good and energized walk for sure although I felt tired nevertheless.
So thus far today I've eaten or taken in: CJ (60 cals) + decaf coffee w.Oat milk (20 cals) + Melon, 250cals maybe. So total about 350 cals according to MFP. I've been tracking and logging my food for as long as MyFitnessPal has existed, since my college days and I actually started tracking calories and educating myself about the caloric/energy content of different foods when I was 16 yr old. I still remember my first traditional food scale (before the advent of the handy digital kitchen machines) and I weighed 1 portion of mozzarella cheese which was, according to the package, 1 sq inch. Turns out that after weighing and measuring it w/a ruler it was a tiny portion compared to what I normally ate and actually enjoyed.
And so it happened that I began tracking calories, weighing out the different foods and learning about their caloric values, and keeping a notepad with the daily food record, just for myself.
Fast-forward to now, 19 years later and I still track what I eat every day although not perfectly and completely bc I sometimes omit some things, or I record an amount/quantity that was actually higher that what I log just because I don't want to feel anxious about the higher calories overall that I would have eaten in the day due to the higher amount of foods. Essentially it is just a superficial effort to fool and quell the anxious thoughts that eventually emerge:
"Oh gosh, I've overeaten today... :-(" or,
"I might begin to gain weight if I keep this up" or,
"Damnit, what can't I keep this caloric intake under control to 1200kcal max?" Etc.
Freedom from anxiety about my imperfect soft body.
What I'd Like:...
What Else I Would Like:
Wednesday, May 11, 2022
Ultimately, you've got all the power (My Journal Notes from July 3, 2019)
Each person is a reflection of you.
Each person you encounter is at first a concept in your mind. The labels the mind puts on the person or situation.
It's not good or bad - just different.
It is OK to feel uncomfortable - you can feel uncomfortable or be thinking uncomfortable thoughts and still be safe and alright.
Not seeking yourself in other people or other things; not seeking or awaiting or expecting validation in others, objects, items.
The moment you notice your own defensive behavior - defending yourself - know that you are currently caught in Illusion (maya).
Personal Power Wellness: Live Juicing-Fresh Melon Juice! ✨️Carpe Diem✨️
Wednesday, March 23, 2022
Wellness Episode: Is Food Addiction Real? What's Right to Eat? Confusio...
Thursday, March 25, 2021
Convincing Yourself of New Beliefs that Work for YOU - Example: Be/Stay Vegan or Not Vegan
Conversation with My Source:
To be Vegan or not vegan?
What's Best for me? What's true? And what's good and healthy and balanced...Here is my 'dialogue' with my Inner Being and Source Energy, seeking guidance, clarity and more inner peace (on 11Aug2020...)
JAA: Fear thought - Will I get sick if I start eating eggs, dairy (nice simple dairy and organic too)...? And what about meat? According to some, meat does not feed pathogens but dairy and eggs do? This may be true for some but is not true for me.
We can clear-cancel-delete that thought and old belief or idea that came from someone else whom I do not personally know.
Source: Practice the Art of Allowing, ease, flow and nonresistance to your innate, natural, always-flowing-to-you goodness.
Allow the floodgates to Love to OPEN for You, Jen! We love you, we adore you and we support you in whatever you choose. Key word: "CHOOSE".
JAA: I am currently having Cottage Cheese 100g and Organic Greek Yogurt 100g - and so far I feel fine in my digestion. I am combining it with raw carrot sticks and raw cucumber - which is superbly hydrating! Yay! I also added Raw Manuka Honey and 1TB PB Fit for an added sweet kick :-). I did sniffle a bit (like antihistamine reaction?) towards the PBFit. Once this container finishes I will not purchase a new one.
The main concept and word that popped up for me since yesterday is Balance. It seems that no matter whether Vegan or non-vegan and the stories they share, some people take things to an extreme and then do the complete opposite of what they were doing before as if the previous approach was completely flawed. It may not have worked completely to satisfaction and may have even disappointed you, however that does not mean that it's a sort of 'poison'. The fact and truth is that there are millions of people who live and thrive long lives of well-being while eating dairy and eggs, fowl, animal foods and have harmony, health, well-being, goodness and etc. And there are also those who do not thrive and need to find a different approach.
The key element is Balance in our intake and focusing on real, whole, natural, non-chemical and non-artificial chemical foods.
My current, logical, rational self considers that there is no need to throw out the baby with the bathwater and there is no reason why you cannot incorporate and merge elements of both diets into your daily life whilst choosing the very best ingredients and products that are organic (to the utmost within my bounds), natural, REAL, whole Foods with a dominance from Plant foods to reach 40-50g+ fiber/day, and fruit daily as well. The fruits and veggies are fundamental, to me, to ensure I'm balancing my nutrition with food-derived hydration and the fiber from natural plant foods which will feed the healthy gut biome.
If I don't feel like meat and no attraction or attention to it emanates or inspired from me then I don't do it because there is really no need, except if in the moment it is in your vortex, aligned and you feel absolutely good and no resistance to it. It can be organic and preferentially very moist to support my body's hydration.
Source: Remove the resistance from your path. Let the goodness flow to you, dear one. Nothing has gone wrong and you will never get it done.
JA: I realize from this experience of just a 4-5 days now having incorporated more dairy and eggs and fish (no meat) into my daily diet, that I have been quite self brain-washed by others perspectives and beliefs. Whereas I started this journey out of becoming Vegan in 2017 due to a dream I attributed as a message from God - for my own beliefs and reasons and not health or the trends or global ecology and agro-business - it turns out that I self-taught so much and researched and learned so much from YouTube and some books - that I am sort of brain washed now about the importance and even imperative of being Vegan to be Healthy.
In other words, I've been taught the belief that some foods will cause me to be ill and develop sickness. Whereas before I never personally felt that in my body, thank God, I just accepted what so many doctors and online peers believe.
Interestingly enough, I don't actually have any Vegan friends and I have only had 1 Vegan doctor who was my dentist and I was with her due to chance and not because I chose her as a doctor for her plant-based eating habits.
So NOW, here and today - the key I've learned is that I have to now DE-program myself and teach/affirm new beliefs for myself that support harmony with myself, alignment, health, vitality, vigor, joy, thriving, confidence and ease with my nutritional and daily lifestyle.